This weekend I was seeing some friends of mine in the city and one asked my if I was still writing this blog. I said yeah, my interest comes and goes, but I do enjoy doing it, reading the others, feeling like a part of the "blogtopia".
He said in reading the blog (keep in mind he is a baseball fan, not so much baseball card fan) that he can tell I am censoring myself, and kinda gave the impression that that may be why my interest and passion for this sometimes wane.
I agree, but don't know what to do to remedy the situation. After doing this for 6 months now, and reading a lot of my predecessors for what is more than a year now, I get to feel like the other writers are more than anonymous opinions and cardboard comments. I think in reading you get to know a lot about the other bloggers and you really do start to feel a sense of community. While I may not be able to pick most of you out of a lineup - I do consider us all friends in a way. And when you are a member of a community, you try to act within its unspoken rules. Try to be a decent person.
Not to say I'm not a decent dude - I feel I am A one if you ask me. But here is another thing I know about myself. I've got a dirty mouth. I try not to really curse on here so much. I've got an awful sense of humor. Not talking about "what do Mayflowers bring?" here... I make fun of massacres, all kinds of people (myself included) and don't get me started on religion.
I try to be a good citizen, and seeing as this isn't really a "personal" blog so to speak, I try to keep most of that out of here. If I were starting fresh, things might be different, but I don't want to say something here to offend someone that I already feel a bit of a kinship with.
I feel that most of you out there are adult enough that if you see something you don't like, you'd stop reading, remove from the blogroll, stop trading, whatever it may be. But I also don't want to start a fire (not that I am even sure I have enough of a readership to do so). But you know what, when I see something lame - I say my god that's queer. I don't really hate gay people, I am very pro gay rights to marry, adopt, live a normal life with everyday rights. This doesn't stop me from calling my friend a fag.
But how does everyone else feel about this? Do any of you find yourselves censoring yourselves here (or on your own blogs or comments you leave?). I know my intentions can often be confused. The purpose of language is to be understood... I know that changing how I express my ideas I can still get my point across, but I also don't know that I should or have to.
I'm not really sure where this is all going. It's just something that I was thinking about. Don't know that I have a point or that anything would change. I just know that besides for a F Bomb or 2 at SCU or a Craigslist idiot here and there, this is really a PG rating community. Do baseball cards really lend themselves to anything else? I'm not sure. Not saying that I wanna go NC-17 here, but I know that everything I type (and then erase) isn't always something I feel many people would want to read, or be comfortable doing so. But do I do this for me or you?
I Don't know.